Back to the Basics

Someone once told me that when you love someone... you go back to the basics. Always. And what's basic is when you love someone, when you truly love someone... you forget you ever needed anything else in return. And that you love someone not because you want him to love you back. You love him just because. That someone never told me it would be this hard. And although my heart has weathered probably more wounds and injuries a 24-year-old heart should, every single time it gets hurt it feels like it's getting hurt for the first time. I'm not sure if I never ever ever learn my lesson... or if I'm just going back to the basics. :(
I documented this only to remind myself of how selflessly and stupidly in love I've become. Sigh.


I'm sticking it out
I still believe that when u asked me to be with you 2 and half years ago, you were promising to take care of me and love me
I still believe in that eventhough it's highly unlikely
I'm making a fool out of myself
And so is everyone else
And I've allowed that to happen because i love you

I'm not them. I'm not just one of them
I'm not ur fat officemate
Or your gay gym buddy
I'm the girl who gave up everything just to be with you
I DESERVE a little more kindness from you
I deserve it
I'm supposed to feel special
And i haven't felt special for the longest time
And ive been asking myself over and over again why I'd stay in a situation wherein im not happy anymore...
And the answer's simple.
It's only because i love you.
Only because I love you.