On the Verge of Falling Apart

I am on the verge of falling apart.

I can feel bits and pieces of myself breaking away from my entity.

My heart is as heavy as lead.

My eyes long to stay shut.

My hands long to remain unmoving.

My mind desires for peace and quite.

My whole being would just like to be left alone.

So I can shatter without incident.

And I can pick up my brokenness in silence.

I would like to run.

But run where?

I would like to cry.

But cry for how much more? Cry for how much longer?

I would like to fade away into nothingness.

But even nothingness will not have me.

I pray for someone to save me from this misery.

To scoop me out from this despair.

And then I stop and realize…

I should be the one saving myself.

No one else.

No one else.

No one else.

I am on the verge of falling apart.

I can feel bits and pieces of myself breaking away from my entity.

And I call to them…to come back to me…

And save me. :(