Vintage Article #4

It’ll be better in the morning…May 14th, 2007 by emzkwe

Somebody once told me, while my heart was breaking into a million pieces, and my soul was shattered and divided into numerous unidentified entities, on the day I became a completely different person, unrecognizable and pitiful, "It’ll be better in the morning…"

I was dumbfounded at such an arrogant, simple-minded line. I wanted to scream at him. How could it be? How could it be better in the effing morning?!
But to make long a story short, I was forced into swallowing that utterly unjustified line. A line I couldn’t have deserved to hear at such a time. A line I didn’t know, would mean so much to me later on.

Yes, later on… A million mornings, and a couple of years after… I finally felt what he meant. I woke up and it hit me. My life finally made sense. The wounds finally blended with my smiles. And the past finally made me see how beautiful my todays could be, despite the scratches, and the scars, the burns, and the bruises.

Finding that perfect morning, was finding the light after years of staying in the dark. By that I mean, I never got over that bull of a line, and I never got over not screaming my head off at that well… ‘person’. But when you came, you even tagged along the butterflies and the Sun.

I pray that for every morning I live to see, for every ray of light that peeps through my windows, I will remember what a blessing you have been in my life. That despite all the tough times, you were the light that got me home, and you ARE the home I have away from home. My family, my best friend.

I pray that life will shower us with beautiful mornings together…better and better each day. That love will embrace us and make us, me especially, see how rare each morning is… And that it’ll never be too late to fix things… because we’re not just living for today… We’ve finally found a reason to live through tomorrow…and tomorrow…and tomorrow.

I pray that I’ll see things clearer somehow. And that I’ll remember why were together in the first place. It’s so simple… but it’s human to forget and take it forgranted, I guess. I pray for strength to hold on… because God knows you are who I’ve always wanted to be with.

And I pray that we will continue to love each other no matter what…not because I wanna show that simple-minded creature that I was better off without him, not because of the giddy feeling my now lost butterflies have brought me, not because it’s too hard to start over, not because I’m scared there’s nobody else out there…But because you and I… well, we’ll make perfect days out of each other’s lifetimes… And that’s worth waking up in the morning for.
I never thought I’d say and see this in a totally different light..It’ll be better in the morning…
I love you.